Thursday, April 26, 2007

I'm trying to get you inside

i can't see nothing but you
it's like you're not here
i think i can speak now
i feel like staying
i don't think im coming home.
can you believe in me?
you know you know me.
i'll show you showtime

it's like you don't want me. like i can't
find your house. it seems to me as you
want nothing but digits. and i just dont
dig it. can you show me a sign drifting
over me?

i need a fix. not with a sugarcoat
just get wideopen, so i can show you one more hit
no promises, or premises just please get me through this.
i don't think i can breathe until you seek me through
i can see through your houselies and i'm over and over and over
it's just like a dream. it's just like a scene in a movie i've never seen

it's so unclear, yet so obvious i don't see you anywhere
else i can't do this alone i'm not here with her you know i'm
just a kid i can't do this alone, get me out of this place do you
know what i mean when i say "i love you" , in a dream
i'm not done completely, i'm just taking a rest.
it's for the best, and it's time to nest and to mest.

I gave you everything, and never asked for anything.

Crying makes life seem longer so I fake it with a smile.
it always seems to work until somebody like you comes along.
and you make it seem so different. I can never tell if that's a
good or bad thing. but i know with you here, anything could happen.

you shake my world in your palms
and i never feel too sick.
you lift me up higher than i've ever been
and i never feel scared.
it must be the y in you that makes me wonder.

i'm gonna move on from that, and onto you
this wing can't be broken with you here now can it?
goodbye isn't in our vocabulary, so i guess i'll see
you later in the night. i'm surprised you haven't said
anything about my wish-she-weres.

you took my wings and didn't completely fix them, but you did enough
and i never feel too nervous.
you made my eyes look better than yours.
and i never bragged about it.
I wish i could say I love you, but I'm not sure you're ready;;
not any more than I thought I was.

" just walk away ...... "

broken hearts, and frozen parts.

You've only built me up.
You've made me stronger in my hands and in my heart.
You wouldn't know what it's like from the start; you weren't there.
Never say never, I just said it twice.
Third time is the charm. I never loved you.

I hope I'm in his eyes when you look at him.
I hope my eyes are in his shadows when you sleep him.
paint yourself away, I hope you
cry when you kiss him. They all come to me at the time
I need them the most. The melodies are so hip.

Blue plus yellow is green
Me plus you equals nothing
to believe. your lies help me
realize i'm not the one to blame.
and that you aren't worth it.

You are the spark of my day, so now I'll burn you away.

NEVER AGAIN....

You can hear it in my voice
You can see it in my eyes
Do you care? I honestly doubt it
I'm done with you, drop all the lies.
It was never about me, and it never will be.
I thought I knew you, but now I don't want to get to know you because...

I don't know you
I don't want to
I don't need to
I don't love you
I don't fight for you
I won't cry for you.
It's all or something,
fall for something.

I don't believe you, so don't tell me anything more
I can't explain anything to you because you're unexplainable
You've lied, and lied. and I've tried, and eventually lied.
but this is not about me, and it never was.
it's about you, and now it's all about him.

I don't know you
I don't want to
I don't need to
I don't love you
I don't fight for you
I won't cry for you.
It's all or something,
fall for something.

Don't try to tell me anything new.
tell him all your lies over again
i'm not regretting this, i'm excited
that you've moved on to somebody
below me and above you. you two
look so pathetic. and i'm so happy
that you aren't really mine.because
you don't think things through.

Incisors reversed

You're a great sport to play with friends
after make-out session #3

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Closer

i fell down from space and since then i felt that much higher

Closer

i fell down from space and since then i felt that much higher

"ghost for sale"

Joe Hill - HSB

Monday, April 23, 2007

"I need a title for this song and I'm thinking it should be something along the lines of " I Love You" "

we've caused the damage in you ears, and
we're so glad that happened. because we
finally got the courage to stand up and tell
you everything we wanted to keep secret
blue eyed serenade; hiding in the dog shade

jump off, i'm up with you. nobody
to catch you? just think to yourself
and i'll be there to watch you fall
again. don't put that out at me.
just keep it to yourself, i'm no heart of gold

set my heartbeats to infinity per second
so i'll be out of here quicker than your cries
if i'm lost, then i guess you'll be the one to find
me. don't count on me to pick you out of the crowd.
just to find you and take you downtown

jump off, i'm up with you. nobody
to catch you? just think to yourself
and i'll be there to watch you fall
again. don't put that out at me.
just keep it to yourself, i'm no heart of gold

i don't wanna write. so i don't wanna show you
and maybe i'm just here to glow

do you sleep in the dark? ask anyone, you do.

" as anything you do, as anyone you are"

"I'm a nervous wreck with an uncountable check"

you can't be real unless i tell you to believe it
my eyes are your traffic lights. and they always tell you to go.
why can't you see that i don't need anything but air?
and sometimes i have to think that over and question if it's what's best for me.
(the only reason i said no is because you never taught me how to say anything else)
i've stored your lessons in my ears. and your fingers in my tears.
wonderful, bitch can you stop crying and laugh a little, it's good for your heart
to know you're going through emotions like a basketcase.
i'll wear you and your eyes like plus fours in the after party, hour by hour.
goodnight. i'm sitting here thinking if you sat here too, or if that was part of my wreck
i hate surprises, and it came to me as one when you told me to breath in. and not let it out
so i thought to myself, would i kiss a girl who lives to breathe. or just to take the breath out of her?
that's still unknown, and i'm still. i know.
she was just a friend. it was just a kiss. it was just a glance. it was just a quickk fuckk
it'll never happen again. and again and again and again. you've filled me up to the brim
and i still feel lonely

sweet lips, ontop of this lamborghini. canyou imagine it?
ohh baby, i can have it, and get it anywere.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

T - pain

" lemme buy you a drank ..... "
can you buy me a drink?

Esc, Cntrl, Alt. Entr, DELETE>me.

i've come to realize you get some sudden ache when i'm gone
i've come to notice how annoying you are when i come around
i've come to understand you aren't who i wanted you to be.
i've come to forget about the things you said to me, that had no meaning
i've come to ignore the thoughts you put inside of my head
i've come to disguise your heart with a sudden rush of blood to my lips
i've come to cross-out the life i wanted to not give you, but i gave it to you anyways

Esc, Cntrl, Alt. Entr, DELETE>me.

i've come to realize you get some sudden ache when i'm gone
i've come to notice how annoying you are when i come around
i've come to understand you aren't who i wanted you to be.
i've come to forget about the things you said to me, that had no meaning
i've come to ignore the thoughts you put inside of my head
i've come to disguise your heart with a sudden rush of blood to my lips
i've come to cross-out the life i wanted to not give you, but i gave it to you anyways

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I'm not sorry, I just don't really care anymore

i guess i should have taken the signs more serious this time.
i guess i was wrong to think you would have been alot different.
i guess i didn't think before i asked a question i thought would matter.
i know it isn't true, and i know you aren't going to be there when im gone.
but honestly, i don't care. because i know who i have, and what i don't have
and the only thing that matters is what i feel. and that's the hate that goes along with you.

she's a poser and a half, can you handle it? . . . . . . . . .

Jinx me something crazy.

why the fuck do people think i won't find out, and that it won't mean a thing come tomorrow. You're wrong, because i don't care about you or myself, and im not in the mood. im never in the mood to have any conversation with anyone. you're all worthless, and atleast i'll have the guts to say you aren't fucking worth it
YOU AREN'T FUCKING WORTH IT
IM NOT FUCKING WORTH IT
THIS WORLD ISN'T WORTH IT

i think they're called an 'ex' because they're meant to be crossed out

Only you can make me tell the truth

I've been thinking about this random book title that came to my mind this morning
" 100 places to see before you die" and i was wondering, what's in it for me? what
building would like to see me, and have me die, perhaps inside it. or outside. or with it
who wants to see me decompose, and then achieve a goal in the after life, and still not
want to become apart of you. it's a shame to see how many people actually think im
going to forgive myself for what i've been planning to do. ' notice the past tense verbs
right there, im not only a ghost, im a human with a conscience'.
you've been left all along, and i've been right since last night.
girl, you know you drive me off the road until my heart is really on the dashboard
im not a professional, but im trying my hardest to reach your hearts summit
you seriously make me who i am, but how can i know who i am when you don't know who you are?
good morning. good day. good night. good times
bad night. bad day. bad eyesight. bad rhymes.
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I don't believe you, now take off your clothes.

i saw you through the eye[s] of my own pet spider, you've never seems so scared
and so loving with[h]in.[m].

you're breath on my glass hand tells it all. it tells the story of our lives.
what simple questions can we not afford?
all the metaphors take up for the curses and feelings., so i love you with embarrassment.
starting each sentence with "i honestly..." isn't just a metaphor, it's a heart waiting to be broken.





i try to stand and say something butyou talk too much, yoou radio whore
You Are An ENFP
The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

You can be the rain, I'll bring some goddamn color.

this time, i'll remember never to refuse an invitation
..you never know who could be there waiting to kill you.
i've seen your blackest blackout, and i'm lining you up.
depression is the new smiley, learn how to make it
open up your eyes, i wanna make sure you're listening to
every single word i've been saying to you.i'll show you
the rest in code, because there's more to life than living



Coinvinced to be fake

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Turn around, or make a sound.

"Wake me up before you go-go
I don't want to miss it when you hit that high"

"" people are people, so why should it be? ....."
xo

Thursday, April 12, 2007

im sick of seening everyone falling for everyone, and landing so softly. and trying to be honest with myself, hitting rock bottom all alone, having nothing to love but this razor, it's tragic you know im your worst habit.the one that gives you the finger
im not all emo, bitch.im the one who caused thescene
IM A SINGLE SHOT OF A DOUBLE ONE NIGHT STAND.
IM NOT LOOKING....
....JUST WAITING

Thursday, the 12th

You know im everything in your mind
all the time. all the time
I'm more than a dime, and you know
people like me aren't common where you're from.
You have dreams everynight, but never remember any
of them. but there's a good one sleeping it's way to you and thru me.

Scream, thanks for these memories i take with me
they scream for me. im going way to slow. you're
always bored, i know. don't take this offensive,
but i love you in the most horrible way there is.

don't say thanks, you're already welcome
just not to my party. you aren't in the same world as me
and i know you're movements would cause less trouble, but
let's face it. i have my own in the back of my mind. don't worry
you're still one person. with two different hearts. .... or maybe the same.

Monday, April 09, 2007

I THINK I HATE YOU, BUT I'LL LIVE

I'd rather ask stupid questions and get an answer
than keep my mouth shut and suffer from not knowing.
don't cross yourself, just cross out me from your life and me
from your eyes. I've gone through more tonight than i did that day
we woke the fuck up.you should only remind me how hot it can get in here, and why my face is so strangely patterned with your favorite color dress.you turn me on HOTTER THAN HELL. You talk just to make noise and you yell just to make boys your sin silk toys. with love, of course.Hello was the only way to go, now goodbye is the only word in our vocab. you treat me like im so low when you know in the end you'd make me so high.I was gonna tell you in the end but i figured that was too soon and I needed to give my heart some time apart, some time to think about, some space to practice for a beating..=]./

I HAVE NO LIFE, I HAVE NO PRIDE
tearing apart and scratching the arts.
thinking and breaking is what keeps me busy.
looking hearts and breaking all my glances.
my smile is in my pocket, weighed down by love
im not listening to you and i don't know what i would
be listening for.
miss misery. do you love me or shove me?
im miserable with a smile on my face, eat your beats alive tonight.
the sad faces my heart makes turns me on. and flicks you off.
creep over babe, just give me a taste.
I THINK I HATE YOU, BUT I'LL LIVE



" You can blah blah blah, and all your friends"
santisantisanti

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

We have your eyes, so we don't need the headlightsi know hate is a strong word
but atleast im honest; it's one thing i actually mean

green eyed pullover

i got fireflies in my stomach, and im leaded to you
and a baby black gaze in my third blind eye is done for,
but im confident. i cant be just lost, let alone with you. alone
you can be my moon song, and if we shoot and miss then
we'll miss and kiss, so the stars can have an audience, and
we can too. we're always aiming for something . i don't want you.
you're stolen[i can't be held hostage over you]. my heart is on my eyes, and it's beat is 7 times faster now that i can't see you.
just for the record, the forecast today is commonly fine, and somewhat
into me. i hope you can keep a secret that can help you in six years. but all this was, was a hint.and it's leading it's own way to a fake faux. facade

Monday, April 02, 2007

I read about the after life, but I never really lived.....

my smile is in my pocket
i keep it there, so when im miserable,
i reach down deep and throw it right on

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Sunday, April 01, 2007

We wasted so many days .......

i forgave you last night when you told me
you were coming , coming. home.
to my home, and i thought you said you
wanted to do something, but i guess this ghost
in the back of my fist says things to me, and
messes with my head, because i know who you are
and what you do. crazy girls, to a lazy blue

you laugh out loud in front of my face
i can't decide what to pay for grace
full price or a discount. im not cheap, im just
a quick scout. and im a sucker for homesickness
and a patient in my heart is finally somewhere to start

i don't wanna live in this "beautiful place" because
my meaning of beautiful obviously isn't the same.
my rain is not your rain, i live in the cold until my
blood get's old and tries to escape, but im not letting
that happen, i can't let you see this happen to me.

you are the one who made me older, don't make me feel like i did last night, back then.
tell me what i have wasted with you, and i'll tell
you what i did to make you do what you did to me

I don't wanna be in love

i haven't done something like this in a while
it's because everyone tried to make me look better
so i had no time to get a shot at it and show you what a man i could be.
i'm seriously crying over every little thing now, and nobody can help it
except you, but sometimes that makes me wonder if you actually can
im so lost in this world, and your green eyes don't make mine look any brighter. my heart is in an upsidedown world, and it's balancing on a enemy. honesty is the part of me that no one can understand, and curiousity is the boss of me tonight, and im not going home.
you make me wanna take you off. and keep it on top
the sad face that my heart makes turns me on and off
creep over, give me a taste. give me a taste
i think i hate it, but i'll live by dancing
the blood in my eyes is famous, and all your faces look good to me
label me as a sharper point in the box, and your eyes may hurt for days
and turn my heart to shades of grey .....